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and to think they were ogre sized…..

Music Tag

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?

Jimi Hendrix – All along the watchtower

- Im not sure what this song selection means, but all I feel on a Sunday is godamn lazzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. lolz. Good song though.

2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?

Blink 182 – Dammit

-ahahahah….sheeeshhh…even my player has an opinion now does it?? Wise ass…you’re lucky I don’t delete you and download the latest version.

3. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND’S THEME SONG?

Pantera – psycho holiday

- nuff said. We’re all crazy.  =)

4. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?

Eric Clapton – Crossroads

- It damn sure is….

5. WHAT WAS HIGHSCHOOL LIKE?

Weezer - undone (the sweater song)

- not too sure about this one. lolz…high school…was high school. Fun, exciting, great, sad, tiring, depressing and a whole lot more wrapped in this one great big ball. I guess weezer would have been a proper soundtrack to high school.

“If you want to destroy my sweater,
pull this strand as I walk away,
watch me unravel, I’ll soon be naked,
lying on the floor, lying on the floor, I’ve come undone!!!!”

6. HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?

Rob Zombie – 100 ways

- I’m sure there is.

7. WHAT’S THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?

Oasis – wonderwall

- aint that a bit emo huh…lolz…but yeah, yeah…you guys are great.  You go listen to the lyrics. I’m lazy to type em.

8. DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS

Weezer – we are all on drugs

- No comment. =)

9. HOW’S YOUR LIFE GOING?

Barenaked Ladies – If I had a million dollars

- You bet your ass I wish for a million dollars!! lolz..but i’d think the previous song would have been a better choice. But oh well… life is good, exams a downer but pfffft…

10. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (DONT LAUGH!)

Black Sabbath – Hole in the sky

- now that is way cool… can you imagine if the sky opened up on the day I died? woaahhhh!!

“I’m looking through a hole in the sky
I’m seeing nowhere through the eyes of a lie
I’m getting closer to the end of the line
I’m living easy where the sun doesn’t shine

Hole in the sky,
take me to heaven,

Window in time,

Through it I fly.”

11. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?

Jeff Buckley – the sky is a landfill

- Like most of buckley’s songs, its one that’s confusing. Not sure bout the message behind it, buts it’s a nice song, and I like it and plus, it has drug references in it, so im hoping ditto for the rest of my life huh?

“ I see you take another drag
One more lost soul to raise your flag
The sky is a landfill
I see you take another drag
Let’s see you take another drag”

12. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?

Shawn Mullins – Beautiful wreck

-Like that lah now!!!! Fine!!!! ahahahahahah!!! lmao!!!

13. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?

Lenny Kravitz – Dig in

- im taking that as a nnnaayybeee  lolz…

14. HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?

Beatles – Happiness is a warm gun

- ahhh…. is it me…or does my winamp player just want to see me kick the bucket? im warning you player…I’ll download the newer software….behave!

15. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?

Avenged Sevenfold – burn it down

- Apparently my winamp has a sense of humour… hah hah…funny.

16. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?

Dimmu Borgir – The Serpentine Offering

- ooookaaay….its either my children are going to be the devil incarnate (no surprise here really) ….or im gonna sacrifice them in some ritual that includes serpents…. you take your pick.

17. WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?

RHCP – Dani

California

- I don’t really think it matters what song Id strip to, just how much I had to drink before doing so.

18. WHAT DOES YOUR MOM THINK OF YOU?

Gym Class Heroes – Cupids Chokehold

- ahahahah…….. This would work, if it were me singing it, and changing the word  ‘girlfriend’ to ‘ mother’……..or….orrrrrr…… if its my mum singing it, and changing the word girlfriend to ‘useless  good for nothing son’ ….it makes sense then….kinda.

19. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP, DARK SECRET?

Nevermore – believe in nothing

- Its a secret….ssshhhhhhhhhhh

20. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY’S THEME SONG?

Municipal Waste – Unleash the Bastards

-LMAO!! That sounds just about right….. Bastard!!!

21. WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?

Maroon 5 – Makes Me Wonder

- Yes, yes… My personality makes everybody wonder…

22. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?

John Mayer – Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

-I guess that makes sense….lolz.

And that’s the end of the music survey….I now need to tag people, and I TAG YOU!!!!!

(Yes, YOU!!!)

excerpts from a conversation im not supposed to know about. nyeh heh.

Tasha - silent melodies says:

        you guys were good.  seriously, you should have 
        seen some of the rest.

Tasha - silent melodies says:

        trust me, when i say you’re good, i mean it…….
        too bad you dont have any original pieces
        though….. but liked how all of you guys had so
       much of energy and stage pressence.

Tasha - silent melodies says:

        and woahhhhh! the whole switch-a-roo thing you
        guys pulled off blew me away!!!

Tasha - silent melodies says:

        Liked your singer….hah hah….. :)  he was just as
        good on the drums as well lah. a bit on the wild
        side but in a cute way.

Tasha - silent melodies says:

        is he single ? ;)  *grins*

and oh. bite me james =)

" It aint real life, its just college."

think about it.

its sad to say, that herd mentality is well alive and kicking.

you laugh at me for i am different……i laugh at all of you, for you are all the same…..

i shan’t and will not conform to your cookie-cutter modules of thinking and way of life. your rules dont have any significance. you opinions, dont mean shit.

horsecunts.

impromptu rhyming idiots…

besh says:

the cranberries - linger

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

yes it has to linger

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

so wave your middle finger

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

and laugh at arsene wenger

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

because its all about to hinder

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

the fact that youre a wanker

besh says:

nah…

ur

rhymes are lame…mine’s phat…bet u cant beat that…

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

i could , i would…but i dont give a rats ass dude

besh says:

if u could…u wouldnt gimme a would bout u would proof to me that u’re the man wearing the hood

besh says:

now beat that dude

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

you talk as if you even know me, but man oh man, how sad it is, its you who looks like a silly donkey

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

go home, you’re beat, i have more talent in just my feet

besh says:

at least im the donkey and not the black monkey…now go along…play

ur

silly inky pinky ponky

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

silly inky pinky ponky? now youre just coming up with words right out of your hiney.

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

its clear to me,its plain to see, you should shut your trap..and leave the rhyming thing to me

besh says:

my hiney

ur

face…theres no difference if u know

ur

place

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

youre better off just spanking your monkey

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

cause man, you know you aint getting bavani  =)

besh says:

bavani salami…i aint letting go…till she ties the knot and becomes a mummy

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

that didnt rhyme you big ass mofo!!!

besh says:

it did…its the sound that matters

besh says:

nuthead…butthead…

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

ive seen better wit on salted tits. now dont try to top that boy, youve just been dissed

besh says:

oh my god…thats so lame…u betta stop before u shower in a pool of shame.

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

oh my god, now thats so tame, you better wisen up before i make you my personal dame.

besh says:

im afraid thats impossible are im the dame to bavani and im making sure im gonna be irreplaceble

besh says:

cause*

besh says:

anyways my black brother…u betta seek a shelter…and get better… at the rhyming matter… cause i gotta go feel my tummy and get phatter

besh says:

piss out

besh says:

loverz ya

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

youre fat enough, you look like a blob, the earth moves each time you move your gob…..so wisen up,you filthy slob, you just better start considering a better job,for you are dumber than spongebob.

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

lolz

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

im blogging this

Moon Tongue… blind eye halo. says:

heh heh.

besh says:

haha

besh says:

go ahead…

besh says:

hahhahaa

so who won this battle of seemingly witless banther??? you be the judge…… =)

Have you ever had soooo much of work to do, but being your lazy self, kept putting it off till another day, until finally it piled up soo high, that just thinking about it was daunting ?

Have you ever felt like it was all just too suffocating, and that if you were pushed any more further, you’d rather blow your bloody brains out with a shot gun?? Have you ever then figured out that you couldn’t actually afford the shot gun, and it probably take too long due to the licensing issues, and therefore started contemplating other ways of ending it all?

And have you ever, then, been so lucky, that fate threw you a hand, and gave you holidays just when you felt you were sick of it all, and gave you space to at least catch your breath? A second chance of sorts….have you ever?

Well have you ever then felt that seeing how you just caught a break…and how luck seems to favor you, you might as well enjoy it and relax for the time being ? After all it’s quite a long break…you have plenty of time.

Have you ever reached the end of the week, in which not a single shred of productiveness was accomplished, and you still seem to feel tired from just thinking about the work load off and on when it crosses your mind?

Have you ever, at this time and point…find yourself still procrastinating? have you ever, then finally felt guilty, and actually decide on doing it, well start it anyway…… when all of a sudden, as if there was a cut in the time-space continuum vortex, almost every exciting thing you could imagine of, happens …. all at once? Rendering you incapable of sticking to your will power and determination and finally giving in to self indulgences as usual?

Has it ever, finally hit you…that its 12.45 am Sunday night/ Monday morning and you have to go back to that wretched excuse of a college in 5 hours, and that you haven’t done anything, and ironically, you somehow finally remember what work you had to finish and that it was due in the morning….

Have you ever felt all the stress and pressure…..the tension……. all start to slowly creep back in …… and all hope, and all that was good in life is gone, and that you’d probably never see the upside of it all ever again ?

Well have you??? 

I just did.

And so it begins all over again…….

Not to mention the customary war-cry sounding chant of ;

“o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god heeeeiiiiiiiiirrrrrggghhhhhhh *deep breath* ………………. o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god o’god……………………………………………………”

bah….screw it……

Ever so scarcely, something comes along in life……something sooooo special….that makes you all excited, turning your entire life topsy turvy….leaving you in a messy heap, rendered unable to control your emotions, as well as impulses, sweat and saliva glands,that you’d stop at nothing just to attain it. Things that…. for a lack of a more appropriate imagery here, make you drool……………*gaaaarrhhhhhhhhhhh*

Think Homer Simpson, with his ever famous line…. " mmmmm……(inserting name of desired object here) ….*garrrhhhhhh* ( mouth open, tongue out, saliva stream  from open mouth till end off chin.)

An example of things that would and that have made me drool just thinking about it, in recent times would be things like, a 12 scoop bowl of ice cream ( count it mother fucker….12!!!) finally finding the  Tenacious D movie!  all day sleeping-ins…….  and the discovery of the entire latest season of the simpsons already downloaded and somehow forgotten by me in my hard disk, and more recently..the anticipation of watching 300!!! a certain someone…well…you get the picture……awesome shit.

Yes…things to drool over……..although as easily amused and satisfied as i may be….. something just topped the freakin perennial ‘drool’ list…hard to believe..but yes…something better than all the aforementioned.

GOD OF WAR II  HAS FINALLY BEEN RELEASED AND I JUST GOT MYSELF A COPY!!!!!

Yes people,……the game is sooo good, that i have been waiting for its release since the bloody day i finished the last one……..and as fitting and bizarre as it may sound..the means of me actually finally getting my hands on the game was a small adventure of its own….

Imagine…driving all the way to ss15 subang..at 1.30 in the afternoon ( subang traffic is a killer….more so on a saturday…)..without parents consent…. bluffing the idiot guard at taylors i was going to pay fees, just so i could get a parking space inside college….and then, actually having to walk to the office and then make a beeline for the exit gate without the same idiot guard noticing…..and then walking all the way to subang square just to buy a freaking video game!!!!!!!

but oh god, was it ever worth it!!!! God of War II is bloody awesome!!!!

well there goes my studies and homework plan for the next few weeks….to hell with it…..im going  god killing damnit!!!!

screw the 300 soldiers….Kratos alone would have been more than sufficient!!

(pictures a bit de small….click it for a better view..)

A bolt of lightning stretches across the window pane,

The rolling thunder pulls me from the dreamscape, back to reality…

But all around, darkness prevails…

A solitary flicker, flame from a candle, which dim glow dances up the corner of the room towards the ceiling.

But all is dark, it’s all darkness……

The hands of time point sternly at late.

But I have difficulty trying to figure what is it I am late for…

What is it, what was it.

Was there anything there to begin with in the first place? Or did I just miss it?

In the darkness of the ongoing storm,

I sit and ponder………

The room is dark, and eerily cool.

The world outside all but a shimmery blur.

Everything. But the falling rain.

Everything insignificant.

Outside, the storm rages on without remorse.

Challenging, holistically tempting the emotions buried deep far beyond the furthest recesses of my mind.

Like a beast that smells raw flesh.

It creeps, till it all returns again…….

The room, and everything in it stands still…

‘cept’ for the flicker of that single flame, and the rising steam, that slowly vapor from the mug I hold.

Time has stopped, for just a moment…

And as Buckley plays on, it dawns…

I am alone….

And at this very moment…

For just this passing second…

It is bliss………..

“Well I heard there was a secret chord

that David played and it pleased the Lord

But you don’t really care for music, do ya?”

The feeling is gone the next.

“Well it goes like this :

The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major lift

The baffled king composing Hallelujah”

I should do something,

I should get up.

But these mixed euphoria of feelings pin me down.

I lay in the same position; I have been in before, time and time again.

I seek refuge, and remain hidden, in the solace of this fortress…

It is my safeguard, I am unperturbed.

“And I’ve seen your flag on the marble arch

and love is not a victory march

It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah”

The void of nothingness and spaces in between have now been taken over by anything that dares fill it.

These thoughts run wild, from free thought to free form, to the free of emptiness…

Without concern, without care…

What does it all mean? Why does it need a meaning?

Why do I search for answers to questions I never knew the meaning to and could never comprehend?

The darkness gives birth, to what ceased to exist….

These muddled words of this reality confuse me.

And in this room, I lie here….with a cup in hand….

Tea. Isn’t it just soothing?

I sit. And rage war with the madness in my head.

“Maybe there’s a God above

But all I’ve ever learned from love

Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya”

Its very clear to me, that I infact control it. I control all of it.

But ironic however it may seem, I choose to feel it.

I give it a voice, just to hear its scream cut through this monotone of what we call life…..

It moves, without concern for you.

But it was still all along.

It smothers…..it suffocates….

“And it’s not a cry that you hear at night

It’s not somebody who’s seen the light

It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah”

In all but a blink of an eyelid, the storm ceases….

The last of the rain drops fall to their impending fate.

And as light shines through the clouds,

And what was nothing but a million shades of grey, turns blue.

It is over.

And as I get up, and extinguish the flame of the diminishing candle,

What was apparent and ran riot just seconds ago,

Is now nothing, but smoke………………………………………………………………………..